Frustrations from the Dick

I feel so frustrated, in the helpless way of feeling. Sitting there relax and then it hits you, out of the blue, you get angry and you have to see it just happens and you can do nothing just starring at it. 10 minutes later calm down a bit and realise it's just you your brain how's making you upset, that offcourse from that what is happening the last weeks months sometimes years. other then that life continues in his boring way wich IM already a daily consumer of it and not try to escape, why should i, Im seeking peace rest and more beautifull mind tranqalizers.